Mondays are typically reserved to be my day of rest, which means I turn my attention to the pile of dirty laundry Chris and I have accumulated over the week and other chores around the house. I usually watch something interesting on TV while folding, sweeping and tidying up. This Monday I watched the HBO documentary on Maplethorpe. I was excited because we recently went to an exhibit featuring his work at LACMA and I appreciated how unapologetic and beautiful hi
s work was and the socially significant impact it made on the world.
I found the documentary to be intriguing and sad. The word that everyone used over and over was "ambitious". He was the living embodiment of art but his desire for fame and wealth never let him feel at peace. I was struck by a closing remark someone made, I'll paraphrase it but it went something like: "he was able to achieve the level of fame he strove for, but it cost him his life". After he died at the age of 42, he went from being famous to being a sensation. He never got to enjoy the fame and wealth of his dreams.
The documentary got me thinking. As I looked over the list of "to-do's" that awaited me when Tuesday rolled around, I asked myself, "What am I doing this for?" Why do I continue to rally the troops, send the emails, set up the chairs and make the calls? Why am I so interested in getting people enrolled into the work I do? How can I stay present and grounded in my heart as I grow in my field?
This is where the voice of what had to be an angel started whispering in my ear, "You do it because you LOVE it! You infuse LOVE into every event, email and teaching. Your life was transformed by this work and that's why you're interested in sharing it with as many people as possible; it brings benefit to everyone who practices it!"
When LOVE is the foundation of your process, you can be IN-LOVE with the process. When Love is fueling your vision and something doesn't work out the way you thought it would, it doesn't matter. The life of your dreams is morphing in-front of you with every step you take towards an inspired idea. Staying focused on how you'd like to feel is important because it helps you stay flexible, you'll recognize the right move to make by how you resonate with it. Go in the direction that feels good and keep in mind that details change but Love is eternal. When you stay aligned with your heart's true desire (which rarely has anything to do with material details and everything to do with Spiritual qualities) you know whatever's unfolding is for your greatest good. More importantly, you'll be able to IN-JOY the fruits of your work.
Jesse Brune-Horan is a Spiritual teacher and whole living expert. He's the co-founder & Spiritual director of Inspire Spiritual Community, a non-profit organization supporting the LGBTQ+ community. He's the host of the podcast "LGBTQ+ and Spiritual", and co-host of the lifestyle series "Super Easy with Jesse and Alison." He lives and Loves in Los Angeles with his husband Christopher and their family.